What I want does not matter

What I want does not matter. 
What I need will make its way here. 
Who I need is yet to be seen, but hopes are falling, and fears are crawling. 
This die rolls not for me, it's chaotic tumbling decides matters of fate with little effort, and no care to its beholder. Fate is a fickle enchantress,  giving you a taste of power before cutting you down to size. 
A taste of worldly pleasure before inflicting a universe of pain.

Take note, this is a test.

Take note, this is a test.
Test these words and find no truth,
Test these lies and find all honesty.
Test boundaries of thinking. Ask and ask and ask some more. Do not draw conclusions for they mean nothing,  just keep testing,  exploring,  finding and destroying,  losing and rebuilding.

Clarity

If what I say makes a bit of sense to you, run. 

Cover your ears and don't look back. 

I'm not the wise all knowing sage that you need. 

I am a dark, twisted, shell of a magician, looking for truth where there is little to be found. 

My methods are my own and they lead me through layers of space and time and turmoil to where I am today. 

Tomorrow is not to be known, it is to be found,  to be experienced,  to be lost in the whirling void of sound and color that is life.  

These moments are but specks of dust on the surface of the great cosmic eye, and all we know will be wiped clean in a single blink.

This is Living?

Can we not move, grow, inspire, create, accomplish, live?

Sitting in stagnation, fermenting thoughts rot and sour our bodies.
The difficulties of achieving anything seem magnified through the pessimistic world views fed to us every day. escape this viscous cycle, stop eating the regurgitated vomit of information that is fed to you. Take a risk for once and try something new, make an effort to improve a problem, anything. Take small steps if you must to test the waters or dive in head first, every step towards change is all that matters. When society is fed up with itself, when people have grown sluggish, pessimistic, and apathetic, it is time to break free. Whats stopping you? scared of falling? where would you go? your toes hover but inches from the cold stone floor already, fear not. Fear the work, the exhaustion? Are you not exhausted already? Why are you even reading this? Go, now.

One step each is all it takes to move the world.

Things forgotten

Death to expectation
Rain on this nation,
For the people
By the lost
By the last
Forever
Forever for the past
Swimming circles in the empty space of time.
This hollow life was never mine

Under the surface

Shove me under, deep into the solid core of this rock.
Through the sea, the eternal dark depths are disturbed by my presence. Falling forever...
Spinning
        Twisting
                   Falling.
Trapped in an eternal game of tag with life and death.
The, pressure, builds, grows, consumes.
But suddenly... Release.

A hole that swallows sight, a force of nature able to wipe clean even its own existence, tears its way out of my chest, infinitely exploding. Forever.

Long way down from here,
Perpetually fighting,
Infinitely swirling,
Mystically making,
Love,
Loss,
Lies.
Live.
.

In your heart

I'm in your heart, so beat me.
Won't let the pounding defeat me.
Really doesn't matter how you treat me.
I'm free.

Swallow me whole, forget to chew.
Into the acid, ooh, I'm melting for you.
Shallowly breathing, but I'm still turning blue.
Its true.

I'm so into you.